Hello lovely watchers!
Some of you may know my life had been upended a time ago, very recently. Some of you may not. It's been an emotional and mental few weeks..or months. I keep making and deleting journals. Everything kind of blurs together as I try to keep myself in line and get on with life. I cant remember what I've said or haven't said as I try to keep the drama out of the better half of my life--the artistic side.
I'm not an angry person. I hate conflict. I dislike making a scene. No pity parties here, just the facts, right? As much as I want to talk shit about the people that screwed me over, I'm not going to. Let's be mature and just put them out of my life. I don't need them. I've got DevientArt. You guys are great. I have more watchers than I often realize. I should communicate with you all way more and give you more to watch me for.
I often have so many dry spells, varying from a change in routine or a lack of drive. And let me tell you, I need routine. But my routine lately has changed so much it makes keeping up with my adopts and commission and art in general really hard. I can adapt to new routine pretty well but it's such a mental strain? I am...somewhat between residencies right now. I have hopped from one place to anther at least four times in the past two months. But hopefully I am settled finally, at least for a good while.
My sister helped me get into a job where she works and it looks like I'll be sticking around there! Which is great. Really great. I haven't worked a real job in years, though. I've been 'babysitting' for ....for years, really. For my best friend. For family. Mutual, out-of-the-good-of-my-blessed-fucking-heart kind of situations. I didn't make squat of an income for it. My commissions were my primary pocket money.
It's ridiculous when I think back on it. I should have stepped up a long time ago. It was all just too convenient. Though I'm reintroducing myself into society as a working person. It's only been two days but I'm catching on fast. Work is slow now, but it'll pick up with the season. I'm staying with my sister for now, working on her shift so she cna train me. I'm nervous about when I get my own schedule though. No car. No money. Though It'll be okay. I'll adjust. I always do. I have the will, so there's a way.
Art...will be slower than usual, in the meantime. I have some Briars on the back burner that are just waiting on getting colored. Some of them may turn into 'choose your own palette' sets. I'll get them out as soon as I can and work on the next batch for spring. I'm sorry you never got my valentines Briars, but I'll make time to make a different set.
I've been keeping a sketch book for my offline leisure's, so I'll try to share those with you some time!
Until next time!
Keep being great, guys. Wish me luck!